QT yesterday was very good........ awesome....... anw, i sometimes really wonder, cause for most ppl, God teaches them through the bible and use circumstance to allow them to apply wat they learn. i for one, am very different. its like the direct opposite, i learn through circumstance, and during QT, i apply wat i learn and somehow, its either i think too much or something, i begin to have doubts and ask either jerome or sunil. through this, i learn.
THIS MORNING i was doing my homework and it was like 0100++hrs in the morning, very tired, but i had to stay up though, in order to complete all those compres.... anws, in order to keep myself awake, i went blogging, listened to songs, find ppl to chat. anws, i went to jaslyn's blog, then i read her post on enrolment. she showed all the cards she received then showed the only card that was given to her by a guy, it was from dan....
i started to wonder..... cause although i have stm, i remembered writing cards to all sec 4s of both BB & GB companies of BBSS..... it stated on her blog: the only card received from a guy
wonder..... am i a girl or she really didn't receive the card? i dunno... i started to think back into enrolment, think about how 53rd boys reacted when they received the cards..... i realise, that only 1/10 of them thanked me (my batch got 11 ppl, excluding myself, it would be 10) how encouraging can it get? this was the rest of their replies....
what did u give me for?
huh? i dun understand what you wrote on the card
this is for what one?
anws, it seriously wasn't encouraging can? (wasn't affected by it probably cause i didn't really care at that time and only had the POP in mind, hahas, pass down ma)
from GB, 5/12 of them thanked me, of the 7, obviously some didn't even notice that it was from me(stupid me for not leaving the initials.....)
at this point, i started asking God, why am i so insignificant? why is it that i always seem to go unnoticed? i off the com then went to my room... started praying and did my QT hoping that i would receive some answers.... nope, no answers at all, as a matter of fact, there was doubts.... anw, i continued to ask, then God told me:
God: I made u feel insignificant among men so that u would know how I felt.
God: do u know now how i felt everytime u didn't listen, didn't praise?
very touched by His words, and once again, i teared.
the above quote from jaslyn's blog, jaslyn, no need feel sorry, cause God made use of this circumstance to help me.
for those that didn't thank me or watsoever, the same thing applies, need not feel sorry :)
lastly, wanna thank God for walking by me each day...
Walk
With
Jesus
Daily
WWJD
alfred has nothing to do at 07:58
